Moody

I'm in a mood. A grumpy, maudlin mood. I figured if I documented it and vented or whatever the hell I need here then maybe it would go away. I hate putting on my game face for work. When I'm here I'd rather just be myself, but today I need the game face, the fake office laugh, and the hope that since I sit behind a wall tucked in the corner, no one will bother me much. I might put on my headphones and tune out the world for the day.

Hate feeling like this. There are various reasons for it, most of which I'm aware of but am not going to blog about. It's enough that I know why I'm in this mood. I've had about three hours of sleep so I'm sure that isn't helping any. But if you acknowledge the Mood, hopefully it goes away.

I let Shannon take the car to school today. I figured if she does that a couple days a week it might save on some gas. Of course it means I'm stuck at work for the full day and have to bring a lunch, but I can deal. She was very excited about it. I remember that feeling :)

But that's not the reason for the moodiness. Been feeling it all weekend and tried to stave it off by reading fanfic (Oh sod off. Some fanfic is actually pretty good :) ) and watching Angel with the kid all weekend. Mindless entertainment you know? Keep the brain busy so it doesn't have time to dwell on stuff. It's an old trick of mine. Worked for the most part. But sometimes it's hard to keep it together. But this will pass. My favourite saying is 'Someday this will all be twenty years ago' and oddly enough, knowing that helps.

So enough of the whiny angst mode. I've got a lot of work to do, coffee to drink, some tunes to play and someone brought a bag of fresh cucumbers and tomatoes for the taking. Yum!!